relative time 3/29/09

wow, time is so relative isn't it? that last five minutes before you get to leave work for the day, the length of a red light? when you are waiting on news that can change your life. that time never seems to end, each second ticks by like a painful sliver slowly being pulled out, slowly moving like days of december for a child waiting for xmas, slowly moving like me waiting for the end of the bush administration. lol. Have to have some humor right?

the length of an exhilarating roller coaster, watching your precious child grow, our actual time on earth. this time flies by in the blink of an eye. why is this? the reality, of course, is time is time is time. the pendulum doesn't actually change depending on our life's circumstances. what happens in our cognitive thinking that makes the "length" of time seem to have such disparity?

i was hoping to have some magical answer, but i don't. i'm approaching 2 months in recovery and it has flown by. it has gone by so quick. i truly can't believe it. i hope it means that life's true treasures, parts of life that we really enjoy do race by us, so enjoy it while we can, if that is the case, sobriety is the best ride at the amusement park. and the agony and length of days while drinking is similar to that sliver being pulled out then there is no doubt that the right decision has been made.

i worry about my brother. he is an alcoholic who is about to lose his wife, his home and any sense of himself. should i talk to him over lunch? see where his head is at? not sure. i pray that his awakening is sooner than later, but that path is different for all of us.

nj