step 4 and rock bottom 4/19/09

hi all,
hope you had a great weekend. the latter part of last week was great for me. 2 days of golf, great weekend with friends. it was quite perfect.

i am beginning work on my step 4 and and then tomorrow, lol, i will begin to put the pen to the paper. i was struggling with wrapping my brain around some abstract ideas and was given some great guidance by a friend of mine. i will keep you informed.

dad's birthday, 62. it is really quite strange for me to have both my parents be in their 60's. seems so old, yet so young. i always equated 60's with old people, now to have them there is surreal to me. too bad my dad was under the weather today. made it difficult for him to enjoy the day i'm sure.

my brother had a lil run in with the po po and not sure if lucky for him or unlucky didn't get a dui. each person has their own standard of rock bottom and if we as alcoholics could step out of ourselves and see what our lives have become i think it would happen sooner, i certainly know those around me had to think, "what the hell?" who lives like that. like i can see with my brother, 3 marriages, 3 divorces, a defunct relationship with his daughter and typically one common denominator, alcohol. but, we each have to hit our bottom on our own. it is usually a solo trip and don't always know when we arrive.

nj